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I will soar with the clouds

On Friday, 28th August 2009, my new adventure will begin.

Life in Brunei for the past 18 years went by blissfully with little turbulents here and there. Nevertheless, I rode on in cloud nine, tackling mountains one at a time. Friendships were made and lost, some regained, some unknown, but despite all the hardships I've been through, I'm glad to make it out alive.

There has never been a day when I am completely solemn. All my days have been filled with joy thanks to the care and love from my family. There were some nonsense arguments that broke out during the past few days between my siblings and I, but after a night's sleep, the argument dissolved.

My emotions are just like the ocean now. A small ripple can cause a wave. Any actions are like catalysts. I can laugh, cry, or even get angry easily. And I'm sure this is not caused by PMS or the likes.

I know farewell would be hard but I shouldn't make it hard for others as well. The life I once knew as blissful would be prone to another lifestyle. One where I have to be more independent and brave. One where my parents would no longer be there to protect me.

I've set a goal for myself. The top universities for Software Engineering / Computer Science is my aim. I cannot land anywhere after that. Putting Oxford and Imperial as my priority should be the right choice. With a goal in mind, I will not stray from my path.

Tonight I'm attending a sungkai buffet. I haven't attended one in ages (I think the last one I attended is two years ago). It might be one of the last outings before I leave for UK. I won't worry my mother by staying on longer than necessary.

I'm not weak when I obey my mother's words. Though I don't attend beach parties, sleepovers and so forth, my reasons are simple. I don't want my mother to worry incessantly over me. I'd rather give up the world than to let my family down because without my family, I would never go this far.